You know a lot of girls be thinkin my blogs are about them...this is not to get confused...this one's for you.

Soooo....it's the middle of summer 2007. I had graduated from high school, looking forward to college, life was sweet.

Sometime in the middle of the summer, i got a message from this girl. I didnt pay them much attention, cause hey, i didnt even know the person, but i knew she was headed to A&T in the fall.
Haha little did I know...

So its the first day of college, im chillin, white hanes T wit some black basketball shorts on and flip flops walkin out of my six o clock class (ha i guess i never learned from this mistake, cause ive had one every semester now) with my new found friends. So we meet up with a bunch of other people, most who I had seen on facebook the summer before coming to A&T. But this one girl stood out. She was weird! Talkin to her self and stuff. She said that she had seen me in a class earlier that day, but didnt say anything.
Haha little did I know...

...THAT SHE WAS GONNA FOLLOW ME EVERYWHERE!!! To class. From class. To the caf. From the caf. It was cool though, its not like I had anyone else to hang out with, not like I had any other friends.

That was the beginning. It's funny how someone can go from a complete stranger to being the best friend you could ever ask for. She is always there for me, no matter what and no matter how much i don't want to hear it. She has always been by my side and I thank her for that. She has been my understanding shoulder to cry on. She has been the complete silence i needed on a dark cold night. She has been everything I have needed without having to ask for it and I thank her for that. We may not be exactly where she wants us to be, but im happy just were we are, and I love her to death for everything she has done for me. We have had our extreme ups and our deepest downs, but apparently nothing will tear us apart.

Now you can't ever say no one has written anything for you, sucka! :-p
Love ya kiddo.

Dig a little bit deeper....

Alright so...this is my first blog post, I've been meaning to start this for a while now, but guess what? I am a huge procastinator!! It's cool though...well...here goes nothing...

This is a very demanding world that we live in, to say the least. Some of us attend school. Some of us work full time trying to make it on our own. Some of us have our own little ones to take care of. Some of us do all of the above. With so much going on, it seems difficult just to calm down and be happy right? Wrong.

I hear so many people complain about how, "I'm never happy" or "I'm never going to be happy" or "I just want to be happy".

Well ma'am (or sir), what do you define as happiness?

"Well i just want someone to love---"
Pump ya brakes homegirl (or boy)

Since when does the recipe for happiness HAVE to include love? Are you telling me that you need someone to love you to be happy? You can't be happy by yourself? You don't know how to make YOURSELF happy, so you are depending on someone else to do it for you? (Even I'm not that lazy...)

Now i hope i haven't stepped on too many toes this early in my rookie blog, (Hell...who is even reading this lol) but happiness comes from within, my friend.


Meaning YOU have to look inside of YOURself to find what makes YOU happy. Its that simple.
What makes you happy?

Do fluffy pancakes make you happy? Well by-golly go make you some fluffy pancakes.

Does driving high speeds on the highway make you happy? Well be my guest. Just be careful dammit!

You like danceing? Well turn on your radio and dance your ass off!!!!

We get so caught up in material things and more often the want or thought of need of love by someone else, that we forget what deep down REALLY makes us happy.

Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with love, love is a very beautiful thing, and something that i have experienced and hope to experience in the future, however, you have to love yourself first, in order to love someone else effectively.

Is that a bit off topic? My bad, my mind likes to wander sometimes...

But please...I'm begging you...do something for yourself every once and a while. Take what other people think and throw it out of the window. Throw caution to the wind!!!

Have a picnic.
Play a game.
Read a book
Soak in a bubble bath
Go to coldstone and make the icecream you like, you know the one...the Cheesecake icecream with the strawberries, m&m's and white chocolate chips *yum*

And when you finish, if you can't smile and say "Damn, that was fun.",
Then i guess you need to dig a little bit deeper...